Month 5 with no cigs.

Well it has been 5 months and 2 days since I last smoked. I really do not miss the smoking I can breath better. Now instead of smoking I eat when I get bored ugh :( Yea my behind has really noticed a difference in not getting the cigs. Some times I really wonder if it was worth quitting. I gained a good 30 to 40 pounds since i quit I really really need to get off my @ss and get moving but I do not have the will power :( yea yea I know if i can quit I can lose weight yea right easier said then done. I have been so depressed lately I just don’t know anymore.

I am 100% happy with my family but im not to happy with myself. Does that make since I am sure it does. I got over 2 grand in dental work that needs done smh and about 150 pounds i gotta lose. I just dunno I might need to go to the doctor soon and make them run tests on me to make sure everything is working right. I know thyroid problem runs in the family mom has it and my grandma maybe I got it too. Or maybe I am making excuses for liking the food. Oh well only time will tell. Ok sorry for ranting about me. I just needed to get it out.