I have been under so much stress since Sunday morning, I cannot think straight, my head is all over the place. My emotions are doing crazy things, and I am to the point of really being lost. I have a hard time eating and sleeping, and according to my scales, I am down 8 pounds. Yes, 8 pounds since Saturday night.
In the past 48 hours all I have ate is a small bowl of Kraft Mac and Cheese with some broccoli, and tuna fish mixed with it, and a small piece of vegan cake. When I try to eat, I get sick to my stomach. I am supposed to be trying out a new “diet”; however, at this time that is not wise. I would not be able to give an accurate review since well, umm I am not eating so losing weight as it is. My brain and stomach are broke atm.
I know things will work out they always do right? Truth be told I am scared to death, scared of many things. Whenever I think of the days to come I break down, I start crying, I start praying that God will do something to show me, he has my hand and we will get through it all together.
I am to the point I want to run away from myself. Does that make since? My anxiety has me going overboard fast, I tell myself we will be fine, we will get through this, but will we really.
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What you are experience sounds like you are in what is called a fugue state – wanting to run away from everything to make it better.
This happens to me more frequently than I would like. I used to give into it by changing jobs, moving – a lot – and cutting all ties with friends. I retired to where I’ve always wanted to live. And I refuse to leave, which forced to deal with things, rather than runaway.
Have you talked to a counselor. Usually student health centers can either provide a counselor or give you a referral.
All I can say is there are others who experience similar things. You are not alone. It will get better.
I have tried to get on meds for my issues. I have severe depression/anxiety. I was actually told my the doctor it was all in my head. I was put on Pristiq but I had many issues while taking it, so I stopped.
I try to not let things bother me; however, there has been a huge life change and it has me freaking out. I am not much for change, I know sometimes change has to happen for better things to come. Everything is all just still so new with what is going on, I just hope things happen fast so I can snap out of this state.
Unfortunately, some times you have keep pushing until you find a doctor that will listen to you.
If you see a psychologist, they may refer you to a Psychiatrist for meds.
Wouldn’t it be nice if you could handle stress?
It takes awhile…