As of right this minute, I am on top of the world, and I don’t think anyone can bring me down from my high. They say we’re our own critic, and that is so true. I do not look at myself the way others look at me. I lack that big c word, CONFIDENCE! Why? I have no idea, I just have a hard time believing in myself. A lot has to do with my childhood; however, I will be 32 in a few weeks, just the thought of turning 32 with no education makes me sick to my stomach. No-one, can change that but me though right.
I have decided I want to pursue a career in Health Care, I am not sure which direction I want to go in yet, but I know for sure health care is the area I want to be in. So now I have to find a College I want to attend. I am still not comfortable in attending College on Campus, I want to start online. From there I want to build my confidence in myself, then look into my other learning options.
I want to study my butt off to take the COMPASS test, and score over the top, so I can get into one of the best nursing schools in my area. If I do this I can have my LPN in a year, from there I can work on becoming a RN. IF I go this route, I have many options on which way to go.
I found a school online and I applied for more information, I was able to sign in as if I were already a student and take some assessment tests. I have to admit I was a bit worried, I have not been in school since 1997 WHEW that is a long time!
There was roughly 7 tests, this was just basically to see if I was ready for College, and if I was going to be able to school online. Some people do better in the class room setting, others in a more private setting. I am personally a more private setting learner. I have a hard time taking in what I am taught if I do not teach myself. ANYWAYS, when I was done I got to see my results…
OH MY GOSH!!! I scored higher on every single one of them, then the average of ALL the students from ALL the schools that have taken this test. That is like HUGE to me, might not be huge for some, but for me this is extremely huge. This right here, yea I know the test was not that hard, but this shows me I can do this. I can accomplish my goals, I can make something of myself, and most importantly I have the ability and the smarts to pull this all off.
I CAN DO THIS!