The whole end of May has been nothing but a roller coaster ride, I think I am ready to get off now. I keep most of my personal life offline, I keep it all bottled up in the back of my mind. I then sit here and wonder why; a lot of people have no clue how I feel most of the time or how I view myself for that matter.
Lately, I have not been that person to keep all her emotions bottled up, they have all been coming out. I have been realizing a lot of different things, and I am glad. I am glad I am realizing these all now, instead of later.
I am that type of person that is lost on the inside, the type that tries to help everyone in anyway she can. The type that will let everyone put their stresses on her, and she will carry them all for everyone. Just so she don’t feel that worthlessness feeling.
I am that person that is very observant, that will point certain things out (besides grammar because I suck at that, but everyone else is quick to point out my errors) in the past few days, I have learned, when you try to help others, it really does no good. Again I will hold my tongue and watch what I say, so my wording does not get twisted…
I have learned to pretty much turn my head on certain situations… I mean what the hell it isn’t any of my business right? This whole mess cracks me up, for reasons I cannot say. For now on, when people come to me for advise, I am going to inform them it isn’t my business.
I just find everything funny. Okay, moving on before I get caught up in words. I will say one more thing… Before you judge me grab a mirror and take a look.
Anyways, I have been thinking long and hard, I have a few more reviews to get up, then I will be backing up some from the whole “review” area. I will turn my blog back into MY blog, the place I vent, because I need a venting place, I need a place to let it all out, because if I do not get it out, it will only lead to another emotional break down, that I have been having. I will still not get to personal, I will keep the vent to a minimal.
So, tomorrow I am going to take a leap in the right direction, in the direction I need to go for my family. I will be going and seeing what I have to do, to get into home health care. I love helping people, but helping people online only turns into drama. So I will be more productive and help those that really need help. I mean the ones online that need my help can turn to Google, that’s the reason it is there right?