You know all them good times we have both as children and as adults, we tend to remember them and look back on them in awe. Sad to say I remember the bad times, and the sad times from when I was a child more then the happy times.
Today my little brother would have been 27! It is so hard to believe it has been almost 23 years since he passed. I will never forget the hell my sisters and I went through that day in April.
April 15th, 1988, it was a Friday, and it was our moms weekend with us, when 6 o clock came and she didn’t show up we got sad, we started to cry, we hated being at our dads, it was pure hell. His wife was something else, we was both physically and emotionally abused by this lady. We ended up going to bed hurt, because our mom let us down, or did she?
Saturday we found out that the home she lived in burnt down, all we new was one was dead, and one was extremely injured. Instantly, we thought it was both our mom and our brother, we didn’t know which one though, but this hurt even worse. We finally found out, that it was my little brothers friend that passed in the fire, my little brother made it, but with 90% of his 4 year old little body badly burnt.
He ended up being sent to several different hospitals before they found one with a good burn unit. Or was it a good burn unit, my little brother was in the hospital until May 27th, when they told my mom he had passed. What went wrong, what happened, he made it for a month and a half, how come all of a sudden hes gone. I do not understand, I just don’t get it, for a long time I hated God, I hated him for taking my baby brother form us, how could he. I know now my brother is in a better place, does it hurt any less, no it don’t. I wonder often how my life would be now if he was here with us!
Deep down I know my little brother sent my daughter to me, I know through out my struggles, he has been by my side. I know now he is cheering me on in my fight against this fat. I can hear him now “I love you sissy, you can do it!”
I love you Daniel, thank you for being a good brother on the other side, thank you for watching over your big sis and your niece. We love you, and think about you often, one day we will meet again, and you can show me all the neat things you have been up to!
Until that day Have a Happy Birthday!